Heartbreaking...

So I know Aubrey is having a hard time, but it's been difficult to imagine what she is really feeling inside.  Today, she let me know!  After her nap, I was nursing Henry on the couch.  First she tried to climb up on the boppy pillow with him.  Then she said something like... "no mommy, don't feed him anymore."  Then... the clincher.  In a very soft voice she looked at me and said... "I want my mommy back.  GiGi, let me have my mommy back."  Ugh.  My heart just broke and I couldn't help but start crying.  To her, her mommy isn't the same and she wants me back the way I used to be.  I tried with all my might to hold back the tears because I didn't want to upset her, but it was impossible.  Sometimes she is too smart for her own good!  She really gets what is happening. 

So, after Henry finished eating, I left him with GiGi and took Aubrey to the park for some mommy time.  I think it really helped and she loved having me to herself.  I realize how important it is for me to spend some one on one time with her right now.  Hopefully, she will start to get used to the idea of sharing mommy soon!